I survived

Well I did it, I survived my first week with out Maire. This was the first time she's been away from me longer than a day. I wasn't to worried about my self as I was about her. I was just worried how she'll handle the whole situation. Apparently she did just fine. That made me better to hear that. I did well. I cried the second night she was gone. I can't really explain how I felt. It kinda felt like I didn't even have a kid, then when I seen everything of hers reality kicked back in. It was kinda weird not having to wake up in the middle of the night for a feeding, to not have to change a diaper, or pick up any toys. I have become so accustom to living the mother life that I forgot what it's like to do stuff and have time for my self. This was a positive experience for me. It makes me appreciate my daughter allot more. Like I said earlier I did OK, but I had to keep my self really busy to keep my mind occupied, and off of Maire. It helped me out allot when Nick's mom sent photos. It made me happy to see that Maire was happy and having a fun time with her grandma. I also liked the piece and quiet, but don't get me wrong, I'm not going to be shipping off Maire again anytime soon.

Oh I guess it's that time again.

I guess it's time to get started on the spring cleaning. I'm not really looking forward to it. It's not that I have a ginormous place to clean, it's just that we have allot of clutter. I need to go through everything and give it Goodwill. What I don't like about spring cleaning is that it takes a long time to do it. In the end I feel better when it's done and over with, and I have a clean house. Now that I think about it, it kind of makes me depressed. Thinking about Spring that is. I wish we had a house with a deck, and a grill, so we can grill out every night. I love doing that kind of stuff. I miss it allot. Well I guess I better get started on that Spring cleaning!

It's almost time!

I'm so excited! It's almost time to go camping. A couple more weeks and the weather will be perfect. My boyfriend and I love to go camping, we can't wait to bring Maire with us. This will be her first time out in the wilderness. I can't wait to see how she's going to react to the idea of sleeping in a tent. I hope she likes it and will sleep ok. This is going to be a great opportunity for her to go out and explore brand new things she's never experienced. One thing that I am worried about though is the bugs, especially bees and mosquitoes. I just hope she's not allergic. Oh I'm so excited I can barley wait! Our next year I'm going to see about canoeing, or I might just wait until she's five. We'll see.

A Big Relief

I'm happy I can be content now. I went to the Finacial Aid office to see if I can get finacial aid for the summer, and to my suprise everything has already been taken cared of. That was a big relief to me. I was freaking out on how to come up with $550.00. So now I can go on with my days with out having to worry.

Frusteration

Well lets see where shall I begin? First of all I have to take at least six credit hours for the summer since I took out a loan. Which is no problem at all, it's paying for it that's the problem. I had received the first half of my loan about a month ago, and now it's all gone. I had to pay for car insurance, getting the car fixed, rent, cell phone bill, and food. My next half doesn't come in until June. That's the problem, payment is due May 5Th. I have no idea how to pay for the class. I'm going to see if I can get financial aid, but I need a back up plan if that doesn't go through.
The thing that makes me the frustrated is my fall schedule. I'm going to have classes every day. I don't know how that's going to work out with Nick's work schedule, and not having a set babysitter. I have no clue what we're going to do.

Easter

So Easter was great, except for the fact I left Maire's Easter dress down at my mom's house. I was very frustrated, and I'll admit I cried. I wanted everything to be perfect since it was Maire's first Easter and all. Lucky to say I was saved. Nick's mom had sent us a card and some outfits for Maire for Easter, needless to say she had also put a gift card to Meijer in there. We were already late for dinner as it is, but I couldn't have my baby girl in blue jeans for her first Easter. What kind of mom would I be? So I quickly jetted over to Meijer and got her a dress, there wasn't much of a selection left but I got one! Easter went on. We had a great dinner and a fun time. Oh but wait the luck doesn't last. I went to take her dress back today because my mom is mailing back her other dress, so I figured she doesn't need two. The worker at the customer service desk wasn't going to let me return it because I didn't have the receipt. Which I don't get it I had the tags and they said Meijer right on them. Anyway he finally let me return them, but he need my I.D. Which unfortunately I had left in the car, so I went back all the way to the car to grab it so I could get on with my day. Then as he was refunding me the money he said the dress had went on sale, and that he could only refund me the sale price even though I paid the regular price. I asked why, his answer was that he could only assume that I had paid the sale price, and that if I find the original receipt showing I paid full price, then he could refund me the full amount. I paid over $20.00 for that dress and only got back $10.00. Oh well I guess it shows always save your receipts and to remember where you put them.

I can't wait until Easter, it's one of my fav. holidays. I love to color Easter eggs, and to be with my family. One thing we need to start doing as a family is to start traditions. We don't have any, I would like to have a few at least. We just kinda float around and wait until the last minute to make plans. I think the problem is we have such a big family, it's hard to do things the same every year because we have to fit everybody in. There's just not enough holidays in a year to accommodate everyone. Another factor is pleasing everyone. Nick's parents don't get along, so they can't be in the same room as each other, and the fact that our parents live in different parts of the state makes it hard to travel. It seems like we're the ones that have to go to them, nobody can come to us. I just wish that we all can be together regardless of travel and disliking someone. Oh well I guess it's just gonna take awhile to work out the kinks.

Hurray

I can't believe it Maire is finally crawling! Boy how time flys, in just four short months she'll be a year old. She can even pull her self up on things. I just can't get over the time issue. It seems like it went right past me, one day I was praying to for her to come in this world and now I'm planning her first birthday. Before I know it she'll be walking, talking, then going off to school. Boy I really don't want to think about that right now. It's amazing to see how fast babies / kids grow; especially when they're yours. I'm so excited for this summer to take her down to the beach, she loves the water, and all the attention she gets from other people. That's one of the best things about living in town, you're only a short walk or bike ride away from all the fun things Traverse has to offer. I have a good feeling that Maire is going to be lots of fun, even more than what she is now; not to mention a handful.